"A Love Letter"

Dearest,

I had a conversation last night with someone about how I don't always spend enough time with you.  Sometimes, I feel distracted, depressed, and discontent. Yet, I don't come to you.  I don't really know why.  I ponder for a while and think I came up with a solution, but it feels so difficult to follow through.  Do I really trust you?  Perhaps, I fear at times to disappoint you with what feels to be trivial insecurities.  There is nothing worse than disappointing the one you love most.  That is the thing.  If I love you the most, why is it so difficult to come to you when I need love?  When I need a boost of assurance?  I also want to make sure to give you the love you deserve.

Dear Little JuJuBee,

This is my first question to you?  Why aren't you having fun?  You and I have talked quite a bit about joy and enjoying each others' company.  You do ponder a lot and that is something I love about you.  You are always thinking, creating, and wondering.  I think I love your wondering best. You see the beauty in the little things and the meaning in the big.  Be still.  Be in wonder.  Be in joy. I wait with bated breath until the moment we see one another face to face.  Then I wait again.  You are secure.  Please don't live in fear.  We are in covenant remember?  If all else fails, REMEMBER. And even if you run, I will always come after you.  Everything else will fall into place.  Just watch and be still; be in wonder, and be in joy. REMEMBER who I AM.