Growing Affection

When I approach, Your eyes burn 
Through my body, to my spirit
I want to run, I want to hide
But I am mesmerized

You are calling me, wooing my heart
Closer and closer, I want to trust
All the past, present, and the future
Melts off onto the floor of redemption 

Tears, sobbing, a feeling of the never-ending lies
Pull at my flesh, flicker next to me
You can never go back, nothing has changed
I am who I am, nothing more nothing less

Falling to my knees, weeping from the Spirit
Conviction like a sword, severing the feeble roots
That had anchored me so long, supporting the fears

Glory like fire falls, burning the chaff
washing wounded ankles and heart
A seed of hope planted in my spirit
With burning embers of passion


My eyes focus up, staring ahead
Into the eyes of Love, wonder filling  me
Your hands entangled in my hair
Wiping the tears, and ash from my face


You came to my rescue, leaving your throne
Restraining Your mighty beauty
Choosing to walk in fearlessness for me
And laying the floor of redemption

Looking in the Spirit of awe
Enveloped by new hopes
Seeing me through Your Eyes
The past, present, and future


I came into Your Presence and was broken
You battled for my heart, winning my affection
Bringing Love into my being and light flooding into the crevices
You deserve so much more than me


Tears once more and downward face
But You pull me up and cradle me
A peace and joy streams in gently
Causing my face to look into Yours


If I am going to be lost, I want 
To be lost in You, and discovering You
New everyday, because it brings me Joy
To please You and continue our growing affection.

Between 11.59pm and 12am

Grace....I breathed a sigh and heard your voice calling me.  "Take a step; remember promises.  Look inside, but don't forget the BIG picture."  I look upon Your face, but You see me first.  "Hold my gaze; I will hold your heart." Ready, set, go.  I will go leaps; I will go further in.  And the surrounding atmosphere will not seem so daunting.  I will not only see the resolution, but create it with You.

Grace....I breathed a sigh and heard your voice calling me. "It's 12.01am and you still have Me...." 

I used to hate writing thesis statements.  Why?  Because I had to figure out a way to encompass all my thoughts into one argument.  I wasn't the best at this.  I would have so many ideas floating around in my head like little fire crackers.  One moment I would be walking in one direction and the next I would be sprinting somewhere else.  What am I getting at?  I spent so much time trying to refine the idea, that I never took a step in any direction.  During the day, I sometimes imagine up to half  a dozen ideas about what to do for my life. I wish that  beyond a shadow of a doubt I could make a choice that would encompass all I want to do.  The realization.  I have spent much MORE time being concerned about what to do rather than thriving in life.  Not to say being responsible isn't important, but there is a point when fear and control make life only about surviving.  Perhaps, I will not be doing all these ideas at the same time, but I must start somewhere.  Make a bold choice.  Take a risk that might result in failure....or better yet....take a RISK..and fall into an adventure that will lead me down a road of possibilities rather than limitations.  It is all about perspective. 

HOPE! Take me higher!